< ShaF!NaZ >

2011-05-05T20:01:00.001+08:00

The girls who made me laugh like there's no tmr.

Blog dead. Im happy with my work now. :)

2011-04-01T15:27:00.002+08:00

Its been quite sometime i didnt upload this page huh. 2 months plus? I can say life changed quite alot within this 2 months. Sad to say, me and love is taking a break for awhile. But i guess things now is not like how we planned it to be before we broke up. But its ok. I believe in if we are destined to be together, we will get back tgt 1 day. So.. ya. :)

2nd is about work. I find myself not easy to please. Like i tend to job hop which idk why. Everything is not right. The timing, the work, the people i work with, all sucks. haha. I used to think that shift work is nice but now i dont think so. I'd rather work office hours than enjoy during the weekendsss.. :D After a few years, i regretted about not studying well in sch last time. I know i shouldnt blame anyone but i still wanna blame this 1 stupid fucking guy. Because of him, my life changed since im 17. But its ok, its not too late now. I can still amend my life abit. Cosmo cert? Mcm going down the drain gtu haha. Wasted a few things in life. Studies, money, family, friends. I guess ive grown up now? Can think wisely ready.

I dowan to make any plans anymore cause i realized every time i plan for something, it wont happen. So I'll just follow the flow. Im not staying at TPY anymore. Shifted house again. haha. To Tamn Jurong. Makin jauh, makin jauh pulak. haha. Nice environment tho. :)

Lastly, My friends tagged me some pics when i was still 15. See? I changed soooo much! hahaha!

2011-01-29T13:59:00.002+08:00

What hurt the most? When family members doensnt trust you and dont give you support in whatever you wanna do, ofcos the good things la. I know customer service and mak andam is totally a 2 diff thing and its a total opp but so what? That's where i can see myself working at. But why the fuck cant my own family members give me support?! FUCKED UP OR WHAT!

2011-01-28T14:10:00.002+08:00

I wanna start off with alhamdulillah! Why? Because I got a new job! hehe. Will be starting after my contract at Ttsh ends. So excited to blog abt this which idk why. haha. The pay is not what i wanted but ok la for a starter. Im only 21 so ya. Pelan2 kayoh org kate. :D Customer Service Officer (CSO) at truefitness. Im excited partly bcos i can join the dancing classes and use the gym equipments for free!!! hehehehe! Dancing2 :DDD Just cant wait.

Will be starting work on 9 Feb. I will take this job seriously. No more not impt mcs, no pay leave or whatsoever. I will be serious. Work is work. Love is love ok? :) I wanna retake my O's. Prolly eng and maths only. Science tkkn masok otak so no use taking den take private diploma on maybe cust service/hospitality. AND AND, hopefully by the end of this year, terkabul lah impian aku nk jai mak andam. Insyaallah. :))))

Nari blog byk smiley je. hahaha! Toodles! :D

2011-01-12T20:06:00.003+08:00

Blog is getting boring. Or issit just me? haha. All this while, ive been telling ppl and blog what im gonna achieve every year but ended up, i only achieved like 1/4? haha. This year, I'll just keep it to myself. Hopefully it'll come true. Insya-allah. :)

Work ending soon, less thn a mth. Only after 2 stressing mths den for the 1st time, im willing to renew my contract again. haha. But dont think so. Still wanna find office hours job so tht I'll have more time to do the things i want. Applied for a few jobs but will see who is willing enough to let me try.

Ok da. bye.

2011-01-04T00:30:00.003+08:00

I must admit I am not that strong. I miss you. Im not sure how long more i can endure this. Miss you dear.

2010-12-24T16:45:00.003+08:00

Am i giving up too easily or i should just have end this long ago? I knw my limits. I hate being lied to, being controlled but wtf I didnt kenal2 with guys while you're in there. I went out with your friends mind you. Your own bloody friends. You should be more relieved cos at the very least you'll know what i did when im with them. I went out with your besfren. Your bloody own bestfren! And where did we go? Hotel issit? or what? park? If you think, they knows how to keep secrets from you, think back. Everywhere i go even when i want to shit, i msg you fuck! Everywhere.

And why are you still feeling fucking so insecure? Guilty conscious? Did smtg bad behind my back but you didnt tell me and thts why you are scared tht i will do the same thing to you too issit? Issit? But yes i caught you once recently and god really opened up my eyes. Still go the cheeck to fight back. Even if its a small thing, if i can take the initiative to inform you, why cant you? This is not the 1st time aite. 3, 4 times? But you still do it after being reminded a few times. Isnt tht just fuck?

I should have left you when you first lied to me right? I should have left you when you 1st lay hands on me right? I shoud have fucking left you when i've already knew we are worlds apart. But why am i still fucking here? ONE YEAR AND 7 FUCKING MONTHS! Goodness sake! Wanna know why? Cos i have faith in you. I admit our relationship didnt start off well but i decided to give it another chance. But it became worse i guess? You say im getting out of hand? Did i ever check in to any hotel with any random fucking guy? Did i ever chat with guys w/o you knowing about it? Did i ever go out with my guy friends? Did i ever do anything fuck behind your back?

I went club i tell you fuck! Expect to me you evrything but you? Give it a deep thought k. I know upon reading this, you'll have many things to shoot at me. Go ahead. I guess i knw you too well rdy. Nvr wanna lose face kind of guy. Whatever the reason we are quarelling about now, think back about what happened at lucky plaza. I can forgive you but nvr will i forget that moment. You are the first fucking guy who ever lay his fucking hands on my face! When its your fault for lying to me! And i gt tht from you. A gentleman? Soft hearted man? Fuck you k fuck you.

2010-12-21T18:27:00.001+08:00

No meaning already. I don't feel it.

2010-12-01T17:10:00.002+08:00

I just cant wait for my 3 months contract to be over and to get a new job where my offdays is on WEEKENDS. :) I guess idk what i want in life.

2010-11-24T19:34:00.002+08:00

What a boring week, plus cant contact love as he have to go hutan. Heard that he can brg his phone but dont know why die tknk bwk. To think back, its good tht he dont brg his phone so that i can be independent but at the same time, off day on wkdays doesnt mean anything w/o him. Today took mc as im down with diarrhoea. What a day. At home the whole day doing notg. BORING!

2010-11-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

Had a fun nite with love even tho notg much was done. Went mustafa centre to buy his swimming trunk (haha!) and then eat at haji karim. Saw one old malay couple quarrel main2, very cute haha. I laughed quite a lot which idk why. I find love funny yest. hahaha. To be honest, i felt weird not meeting love's friends. Kept asking him "tk jmp dekni? tk jmp dektu?" Till he asked me, "are u bored with me?" and i laughed. The answer is obviously no. It just felt weird not meeting them cos every week jmp bro. So ya~ haha.

Will be another boring week. Worked pm shift this week. Thur fri off is like -_-" w/o love. Kt keje pon byk fakers. So work there is a turn off. Pay was not paid on time which sucks! Will call them tmr. Suke2 only tk byr abe tk inform. Fri will go and watch love take his beret. Donoe what is it la but will support him. Guardsman may sound notg to me (as im a girl) but it do sounds big to love. Guardsman~ Feb, pls come quick. Cant wait to change job.

Now till wed, no plan. No money, nowhere to go. Work work work. How i wish i can turn back the time to when i was still in primary school. Where i always play soccer or playground after school, ask pocket money from parents to buy sweets and drinks. Finished school at 1pm if im nt wrg and play till 6pm den go home. Balik kene mara. hahaha! So cute. Frens were superb at tht point of time. Everyone was so innocent. But time changes after primary school. Started to have fakers, bitches, liars, bastards, nonsense ppl, fuckers during sec time.

As i am 20yrs old now, when i think back, its okay to have all tht kinds of ppl during sec sch as maybe thts when we r starting to grow up and kenal hidop. But I cant accept ppl who has the same age as me or maybe even older with tht kind of attitude. Isnt that stupid? Tkle piker agaknye. Fake around, gossip around, bitching around. -.- Go and fuck yourself man. hahaha! These ppl need to go for classes on how to be a normal person who dont bitch or fake or gossip. Stupid ppl!

Ok type enuf rdy. Just wanna kill time. Will blog again other time. Selamat!

2010-11-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

I totally "love" my holiday. Okay, -.- ~ Hmmm.. Speechless over what happened last night. Supposed to be a fun one but turned out bad. Not sure what happened. Right after buying shirt, everything went haywire. After movie was okay. Went Yishun planned to eat western but he forgot to take out money and the atm is like far from there. I had $14++ with me and he have like $4++. Total will be $18++. Isnt that enuf for the 2 of us? We fought instead of eating. I said use my money to eat but step jual mahal nk mkn fries je. BIG FUCKING HIGH EGO KN KAU? Happy now we ended up this way? Bile aku expect kau to like atleast treat me, u made me use my money when u jolly well know i didnt have enuf. When its the time to use my money, big fucking ego kau datang.

People with ego is fucking difficult to talk with. Dont wanna lose, always have fucking excuses, save face, cant make them shy at public, no money also say gt money, no money but buy branded things just for the brand name and etc. Isnt that like wtf and -.-? Cant you people with ego live life like other normal ppl? Be humble. Never say urself humble. Let other ppl say tht ur humble. Self praise is like wtf seriously.

Love is like fruits. It'll taste nice and sweet at first. But itll turn sour after a while if its not being eaten. Baru2 sume okay, after a while~~~~ hmmmmmmm~~~~~~~~ Notg happy last forever. Made mistake once for giving u a chance after the 1st 5 mths, made another mistake by forgiving u when u lied once to me, made another mistake for giving u another chance after lying to me twice. Despite all this, im stil here with you. Haiz. Im truly grateful you helped me when im jobless last time. I dont mind helping you back ah. Money can be earned back.

Right now, im nt sure with what i want. Seriously my heart feels tht ur not the one. But on the other hand, haiz. Confused! Mcm sial2 pon, da 16 months. -______________-"

2010-11-15T20:41:00.005+08:00

I look fat in this pic. But who cares, I love Alyssa. haha. She's super cute especially when she smile or laugh. If only i knw tht my sis in law is taking my pic also, aku bole senyum seiii. hmph! Notg much to blog. Boring. This week work morning shift. After months of working, this is Wed is my 1st time off on PH. hahaha! Cant wait to go my nenek hs and go jln2, literally jln2. Tmr, si gondol tu balik agaknye. Mcm nk mkn westernnn ajee. But not confirm yet. So yeah, see how.

Dulu dpt keje yg mlm complain susah nk klua la ape la, now da dpt keje pagi bosan la pulak tk gi mane2 aft work. If only i have my own bike... hmmm... But dont think i'll take bike license ah. Pity my mum.

Plans for this month is to dye my hair chestnut brown colour and buy a new phone. Probably nokia C6 OR E3-02. Got totally confused! Macam nk beli due2 jeee.. hahaha! e3-02 looks nice ryteee??? hmmm~~

2010-11-03T18:49:00.004+08:00

One word; Alhamdulillah. After months of being rejected, writing application forms tht weighed atleast 5kg 1 think, no calls back, and now atlast, i gt a "facetoface" cust service job. Altho its just a registration or like minor2 work but i guess tht my 1st step. To think back, to ear 1500 w/o experience is mcm dreaonbaby. hahaha! From here, i will do my best, try to avoid from doing mistakes and who knows i can upgrade myself to a higher level. And, i'm only 20. Still have alot more to learn. By 22/23, I will get a stable job with stable income. From there, i am more confident to plan for my future. :) Now, Its not the right time yet. Too young and immature and cashless! haha! Love is also still serving the nation. Gaji pon cukop2 makan nyahh. haha.

My planning : Now, work to gain more experience.

No mc no urgent leave unpaid leave sesuke hati lagi.

Extend the contract!

And from there, find a better job.

Plan for the future. :)

Slowly baby, one step at a time. Chill~ I remembered one of my sup says she wants to be like me, tk mara2 senyuuummm je. Org lain yg buat sala but i have to bear the consequences also i senyum je. One thing came to my mind, whats done cannot be undone already so yaaaa~~~ heh heh. Da 2 hari hang tak kol saya tai tkpe, bsk thursday. Hang klua. Kite enjoy!!!

2010-10-27T03:25:00.003+08:00

Baby, we r gg to have a short weekend this week. :( But next week you book out on thur ryte? That means we r gg to have a looong weekend baby. :DDD But sadly blm gaji. haha. Nvm I know what to do. *kening naik2* :D I love you so much love. Will stay strong till the end.

2010-10-26T01:55:00.002+08:00

Its' really saddening when people around especially your loved ones doesn't trust you. Love has difficulty trusting me which I do not know why. Why issit so difficult? What the hell should i do to make him trust me? I'm a lil sad about that. I am trying my best to change but the thing is now he doesn't trust me fully. What should I do? Love, Im sad. Im sad that you, my love tak trust I. What ever do, wherever i go, I'll always tell him. Its just that yest i totally forgot to msg him. I told him the truth but I can see that he's not satisfied with my answer. Please trust me? ;( If not you, who else? My family especially my mum have already given her trust to me. Now, will you do the same please baby? <3

This is for you love

2010-10-20T03:48:00.004+08:00

Currently at home with Adi, love's bestfren. Was unable to go down late at night so we decided to lepak at my home. Went raffles place to meet Baklyah. Talked and laughed. Heard some unwanted stories. But nvm, my ears is always for ppl. haha. Today's wednesday. 2 more days to love's bookout. Cant wait. Miss him, donoe why. Last week, settled some things. Talked things out. Finally, somebody's able to wake me up. Like finally k! If not, i'll just stay stubborn and hot headed sampai bile2. Pity boyfie. Will learn how to take things easy. The keywords is space, honesty and trust. I'm sure im able to give all these to love. Control is not my forte actually. So do whatever you want just know your limits and everything's gonna be alright. :) Will be dancing tmr at Yis and at night. Can't wait! :D Will go with boyfie one day. Lets go again and you'll see some changes in my dancing style. heh. :))) Ok now shall stop here. Will post again some other time for you to read aite love? ♥ you Faiz.

2010-10-13T03:37:00.002+08:00

Stress, I'm stress. What should I do now? Body just dont want to slp. Keep thinking of clubbing and donoe why clarke quay. I just feel like chilling out. Sit down by the river and just relax. I'm a girl, anything can happen to me. What should i do? What should i do?? Tmr working. Afraid time will pass by slow. What should i do? Karaoke? Shopping? Chill? Chilling is the best. Need someone now!

2010-10-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

just came back frm meeting love. Prob settled. When he was eating just nw, he look sooo tk terurus. Face tkya ckp ah, army wad. Shirt not ironed. So not him today nt ironing his shirt b4 gg out. I think i miss love's body last time. He's skinnier now. Pls be more fleshier. I miss those baby fats. Now mcm kayu. Ns abes je will see how again. Hoefully u'll turn fatter abit. heh.

Last note, DIARRHOEA IS NOT FUN AT ALL!

2010-10-05T16:44:00.003+08:00

Aku nye org mmg cm ni. Very straightforward, very honest. Aku tk suke aku ckp je. Aku nk kene pikerkn kau, aku tkya pikerkn diri aku sendiri? Tuhan bagi otak pki ah k. Jgn simpan dlm almari. Guradsman? hah.

2010-10-04T01:58:00.002+08:00

Is it him or issit just me? So stupid!dowan to talk about tht. Today i wanna blog about boyfie. Boyfie POP on my bday and he got leave unti next2 mon. :)))). For the past 3 days i worked in the morning. Sumpah ngntok cos tk biase. All this while i've been working night shift. Nak spent time ngn die nye psl, i work morning. I just feel thankful and grateful tht even tho he's tired from all the training, 24km walk, he still sent me to work today and picked me up yest and today. Even tho he's sleepy, he still spent time with me till late night. Just feel soooo like nice he did tht for me. Thank you dear.

This yr, even tho we didnt celeb my bdae same like last yr, but im nt angry cos i understand tht he's serving the nation so cant do anything abt it. Kite rilek. But 2012 must celeb k? hahaha! Jk la. bdae like normal days to me. Only tht, the num keeps getting bigger. -.-"

Ok now, i want to slp till tmr afternoon. heh heh heh. Happy working/schooling ppl. Monday blues~~~ hahaha! Gdnyte! :D

2010-09-28T16:46:00.003+08:00

After quite some time tgt, i realised we have difficulty talking things out. I find it difficult to say what i actually wanted to say cos somehow i feel tht you dont understand me. For example, you did smtg wrg, i wasnt able to get my msg across cos u keep on saying sorry and wants me to forget it at tht point of time jgk. I feel so not nice when i have to force myself to forget it and, even if my mouth said ok but my heart's will still be not happy. It will still rmbr until i do smtg bout it. Thn, it's satisfied Get what i mean?

Everytime, when we talk things out, say all the unhappy things tht we have in our mind, i realised, u'll not be happy with what i say. When i ask you to say 1st u said notg. When i shoot everytg baru u nk ckp ni nk ckp tu. Dont you find it funny? I tot when it comes to talking session, everything shud be let out lagi2 after quite some time being tgt. But you? You always say, anything unhappy, just tell. But when it comes to you? Da kene shoot baru nk ckp. And you'll start saying " i just keep quiet only..blablabla~~~ You said, anything unhappy, ckp but you yourself didnt prac tht.

And when u did smtg wrg, u even got the cheek to say about me. Tell me, how am i suppose to love u so much when u hurt me? You even dare to say my love for u is always ups n downs. Girls wont do tht if notg's wrg. Last time maybe, bcos we gt tgt quite fast and i stil havent trust you. Now im slowly trying my best to start a fresh new life with u. Im nt trying to say im good. Its just tht whenever we have problems, honestly i find it diff to talk things out with you. You n your world.

2010-09-28T02:31:00.006+08:00

Sesungguhnye da lame gile tk update ni blog btl2. Its dead for awhile. Its been months. Many, i really mean MANY things happened in these few months. Ok, first and foremost, i started working back at call centre. Pay quite good but management and working hours suck. Im still finding for a new job with better working hours. Working rotating shift is nt good.

I am proud to say this. I guess i have my freedom now. After years of suffering, dpt jgk freedom BUT of cos i cant misuse it. But im sure i wont misuse it la. Wanna lie also for what ryte? Like no use like dat. I'll use it wisely instead. :) todays post will be a long one, confirm! 1 para, 1 story. heh.

Ok. freedom da ckp, work da ckp. Lets talk bout hari raya, Hari raya is where all fam members gt tgt ryte? Catch things up. eat, enjoy, laugh tgt and lastly, bermaaf2an ryte? Guess what? My fam is incomplete this yr. W/o 4th. Every yr, we'll gather at nenek's hs, but when the rest of my fam is about to leave from the house, 4th and his wife arrive. How fuck up can tht be. And he's like treating all of us like strangers. Oh my god ehk. Haiz. hari raya kene keje on the 1st day. I gt to wear baju kurong twice je k. No gg out with frens this yr. Rindu la pakai baju kurong. haha. My mum and me nw are getting closer n closer. Baru cam mak ngn anak. But i dont like it when her angin comes. Mcm shit ehk. haha. Mama mama ... haha.

Now, love. Love went ns 1 day b4 our 1st yr anni. Sending him off was easy. No tears at all. Time balek...fuhh!!! heavy rain. haha, But tht only lasted for 3 days only then better.On our 14th mthsary, hell be having a fast march comp. All the best dear. And on my birthday, die POP la kan.. Support die. Bwk banner sume. Cheh. haha! Just had a tiff with bf these few days over smtg. Just wanna say love me sincerely k. Dont do it anymore, No more next time rdy aite. I'll forgive you this time. kakak baik k. Come on~~~ hahaha!

Within this period, i went to watch vogue perform at tanteric pub. It was a bday celebration.

Tranny. Im the only straight girl there. I saw all kinds of senget ppl. But its good to mix around with them, atleast u know other ppl's world also. What one of them told me is true, when u grow up, if u were to have a son or grandson like them, u know what to do. After all, they r human beings too. :)

Lastly, i have a new love name Mike. :) MY LAPPY! I sold my old comp and bought a new samsung lappy. Worth the price, What i like the most abt mike is its scratch-free! :)))) And im using it right now. :)

Ok, thts all for now, will blog again soon.

Btw, one last note, jadi pmpn jgn jadi poster sgt k. Sape2 yg ade bodek mesti kau okgo ehk. Tk bgs prgi cm tu. Nk frenly tu frenly, tapi agak2 siket k.

Family aku multi racial this yr raye. haha!

Signing off

Shafinaz :)

2010-09-04T00:52:00.002+08:00

Today, i blog just for the sake of blogging! Cb! Comp no moreeeeee!! But lappy will be coming soon. ;)

2010-07-08T03:13:00.003+08:00

I feel so insecure. Let me feel u love me so so so so so much can? Its nt nice to feel insecure u know. I dont like. Can lead me to negative things. I love u so much Faiz. Hopefully we can spend the rest of the days left tgt b4 u got to serve the nation. Ily.

2010-06-07T18:53:00.004+08:00

MR. KEPOK SCRAM YOU!

Now, im angry.
-many pics taken at various places but nvr upload
-hp spoilt tapi tk tukar2
-financial
-heart gt cheated
-got plans but the dates it still far away

im angry! -.-

2010-05-19T19:14:00.002+08:00

Today im gg to post abt a guy ive once loved. We've know each other for almost 20 years. For the past 16 years, i can say tht he has always been there when i need him. We always joke everynyte, calling each other names and even exchange punches. He's 6 years older thn me. I was told tht he's the one who change my diapers. make my milk, took care of me whenever mums out working. No one is to bully me, not even my mum. How bout that?! Besides his mum, im the only girl in his heart. When i grow older. things get better i guess, able to understand each other and stuffs. But things got diff when i was 18. Got to meet him lesser, hear his voice lesser (few mins a day only). All this happened after he has found a new gf which he planned to get married with. Things get worse after they have been tgt for a year. Didnt go home, abandoned his familly and me. When his family ask him to join them for a family outing, he'll give excuses like have to work and cant take off. 10001 excuses. But when his gf's family asked him out, he'll straightaway agreed. I gt angry upon hearing that. Now, he's already married to his gf for half a year. Within this half a year, he vsited his family n me ONCE only. Not even during his mum's bdae. Im sad that my 4th brother has turned out to be this way after gt to know his gf. I wonder what his gf has done and speak to him. I miss him so much. I always wonder will he miss me or even think of me as his lil sister? Hmmm... Tc brother. ily.

2010-05-11T18:17:00.006+08:00

Ok time to blog again. Im having a tough time with life and some problems now. On the 3rd of may, i went for a 5 day course to upgrade myself on service industry sponsored by e2i. Tmr ill be going for an interview again. Hopefully with the cert i gained, i can get a job. If not, im nt sure what to do. giodarno called me up after such a fucking long time to ask me to work part time at exposales at the end of this mth. If i didnt get a job tmr, i guess ill just have to go for it so tht there'll be some income for myself.

I wanna talk but easy money. I dont believe tht money will come so easy just like tht but from what i have heard and saw with my own eyes, this thing can really be true but idk why inside me, i still dont believe. Maybe its just tht i believe that with hard work den we'll get paid. Gonna look more into it. And btw, i have a new close fren now, man. Nice to have a fren to talk with. Dont get me wrong ehk...

Next, can someone teach me how to trust ppl, be and act like a real girl who knows how to talk softly, nt to be rough, knows how to pujok and stuffs? Omg im having probs with that. Seriously. I myself think i dont act like a girl. Currently facing with some probs. Its been weeks i guess i didnt talk normally with my mum. We'll talk if theres a need only, i can count how many words i spoke to her! I used to tell her if theres any interview or any new things i learned or found out, tell her tht im gg out, but now no more. Ok la freedom. Its just tht i talk more with bf more thn mama. haha.

Bf? Hmmmmmm..... *shake head* Donoe what to blog abt him. No freedom to blog abt him also. Its been gg to 11 mths we've known each other n i guess i knew him inside out. His attitudes, the usuals that he'll do or act or react. Da kenal sgt. What i realised love, (im sure u realised this too) we both have diff personalites, diff characters and the most impt one, diff mindset. I find it hard to...... u know what im trying to say? Im the rough one while u a lil introvert, need face and stuffs. Is this bad or something good? Im unsure. Opp attracts? Tk tau b! haha. Stress tau otak aku piker2. Tah ape yg aku piker pon tk tau.

In a relationship, if thers no fights no downs, i know tht wont a normal relationship. It need fight to mae us closer but is all this normal? I seriously dont have tha ans. Is it you or is it just me? I really need to meet with someone who is good with all this, listen to his/her advise/opinions so that ill have a clearer vision of what is going on now.

Aite, i'll stop here for now.

2010-05-08T14:33:00.003+08:00

*Deactivate mode*

I feeli like gg for a holiday but i cant. Wanna put everything to a stop for the time being.

Im feeling worse of the worse right now. Finding for that sumone who can endure n understand me fully.

2010-04-04T15:31:00.004+08:00

Love say i dont understand the meaning of love. :) Love is a very big word. Love for frens, for families, for animals, for nature, for God, ourself and many more. Love is to stay by the side of their partner thru rain or shine ryte? Never give up and go thru all obstacles bravely together planeed by Him right? For eg, he/she wants to go london for few years and he/she ask her/his partner whether is he/she willing to wait and their ans deep in their heart is no, so meaning, he/she doesnt love his partner ah? Ehk? Issit? I just cant figure out why is tht so? Just bcos of unwilling to wait then there's no love in there? Hmmmm... We have to think for our own too ryte at times? So ya, love is a very BIG word with deep and various meanings.

How i wish i can meet up with someone who has all the answer to my quests. -_-" And i would looovvveeee to meet the person who created money. And and, why human beings must have emotions and feelings? Why must one have mix feelings like love and anger at the same time? WHY??? ..................

Now, im at home. (?) haha. Kinda bored. Not going out today. No plans, no frens. Tmr monday, no plans again. Will be calling hosps tmr. Im nt sure whats the plan for this week. Will be a kinda boring week for me. Hopefully, i can get work soon. Atleast ill have smtg to do everyday. Plus an income for my own every mth. Im turning 20 in a few mths time and ive already made plans for myself when i turn 21. :) What else shall i post today.. Boring la pulak. Phone is keeping itself quiet today. Do i like it? Or nt? Idk. Bye. -____-"

2010-04-04T01:50:00.003+08:00

Im nt sure whats up with me nowadays. But i clearly knew that incident after incident made me feel confused. Whenever im trying to let go of past incident, another came. And that made my brian jammed! Stucked! I cant think. Im nt sure of what i want now. Problems at home are getting worst. Cant describe her attitude anymore. She is getting frm bad to worse. I dont like to stay at home.

Now, work! Its been 2 mths im jobless. All the interviews that i went e.g, admin, receptionist, front desk, sales even kfc/pizza hut call centre, all didnt call back. Just donoe what to do now. This mon im going to try my luck at hosps as a porter an also at cinemas. Haiz... Im fucking lost right now. No life!

2010-03-29T00:55:00.005+08:00

"it has been 8 months, and whole of 8 mths and forever.happy 8th months of crazy-steady love baby. Forever I know you’ll be here in my heart, in my arms, and when years go by I want you to know how much I love you each and every day.Even though you think i love you less because of everything we’ve been through, i still can’t find exact ways to describe how i feel. You are a miracle, each and every day with you I treasure in my heart. Every beat of my heart fills more and more with your love. You are the most beautiful person in the world, inside and out. You filled that hole in my heart that has been missing for sometime. I love you; thank you. I hope I make you as happy as you make me.

To me, dear, you are perfect. Perfect to me, everything about you. The beauty inside of you is miraculous. It is beyond what nature could ever possess. You are more beautiful than anything I have every seen in my life. Just take a look in the mirror and you’ll know what I am talking about. :)

i’ll always try to be here every step of the way. i hope you always remember, that whatever people think of you, it doesn’t count or matter cos in my eyes you’re still great girl i fell in love with.. and baby, don’t you worry cos whoever lady i meet or know, at the end of the day, each of them has only proven even more that i’ve got this great lady whom no one can compare to.

Thanks for being there, thanks for loving me, thanks for being you. I love you with everything I am. No poems, no words, no letters, no gifts, nothing can ever express how much I love you, but you know how much that is."

Love ♥
faiz.
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The most AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ letter i ever gt. Thanks love. I suke. heh. Da mcm copy paste la pulak kn ni msg. haha. Happy 8th to u. Cant wait to meet u up in less thn 24 hrs frm nw. hehe.

p/s : The top photo is the FIIIIRRRSSSTTT photo we took. Memories. haha. Love u! :D

2010-03-22T01:30:00.013+08:00

SHAFINAZ! FORGET ABOUT THE PAST LA! TRY

LA BODO!!! STUPID OR WHAT AH YOU???

HAIYOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On the other side, " NO! BRING HIM DOWN! WAAAYYY DOWN! MAKE HIM FEEL FUCKING SUPER SMALL! YOU CANT JUST LET HIM OFF JUST LIKE THAT. HE MADE U SAD FUCK!

How? -___________________-"

2010-03-20T20:40:00.006+08:00

Last post on Feb 19th. Now its 20 Mar. Da 1 month tk update. HEEELLLOOOOO PEOPLEEE... :DDD Ok first thing, Love found out my blog link already! DAMN! How the hell u get my link??? Still cant believe how u gt it. Hmph! Habis sume bocoh rahsia aku! hahaha. But nvm la. heh. Ok next, i started dancing back! Dancing was fishing fun! The steps, the people, fun fun. Mak suke. hahah :D Mak blaja vogueing and b-boying oi. Joget jantan. Loves it! Be jealous ppl. hahaha!

Within this one mth, alot pf things happened. 5th sister in laws bdae on the 5th.Bought her a bdae cake den went to have some rocking fun at night with her and her husband and 2 of frens. Plus me and some of loves fren. AND! IZZY! He rocks! hahahah. Siow. All night long asek craves for _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ je. Go figure. hahaha! Den off to Jln kayu to have some food. Let u guys see some of the pics we took on tht day la k. heh. Next day was supposed to accompany man to hosp for his small operation but was too sleepy. Cant wake up. Rase berslh aku! Hmph!

Next, loves bdae which falls on 8th Mar. Bought him a shirt with his face and name "MR.KEPOK" on it. Wrapped it in a tissue box with tissues in it which made it look like a real tissue box and lots n lost of newspapers. hahaha! Had some surprises for him too on his bdae and the day after. On his bdae, ^^ . Go figure yourself again. haha. The day after was not really a aurprise la. Treat him pizza hut. Makan besar oiii... heh. Hope u like all the surprises i had for u dear. Fortunate kn to have a gf like me? *kening naik-naik* ^^ hahahahah!

Next, hmmm... yest accompanied man for his hosp appt den meet love went junction 8. Look at these shoes. Im attracted to the 2nd one. You? Comment on these shoes aite. Or maybe any suggestions to what shoe shud i buy? heh :)))

Den some problems solved. :) Must do talking2 session again ok love? Tell u smtg k. I was fishing pissed off when all of a sudden u went crazy gtu. Whistle2. Dlm hati mcm nk fuckk je.. hahaha. But okok peace2, da settle ehk? ok bro. haha. Ok then till here. See ya again :)

PLAYLIST KOSONG TKDE LAGU!!! Satu org please. :(

2010-02-19T14:34:00.003+08:00

Hey, back for updates. Firstly, ok Nurse Fazura, i give up. The bisul is getting more biadap here. It has affected my buttock la pulak kn. I cant sleep properly yest, have to turn n turn to find the right position so that my butt wont hurt and i can sleep peacefully. hehe. Soon after my mens, ill go see a doc ok? :)

Later, will be meeting love. Next, I'LL BE DANCING BACK! YEAH! Its been quite some time i didnt dance. Yes, i miss dance so much. Next week onwards, will be dancing back again baby! Net aim, Sriwana. Hopefuly can la k. Miss malay dance also. :(

Hmmm.. What should i update some more? Family? Sucky as usual haha. Frens? Ok great not bad. YA! I want to go melalak(karaoke)! Alone or maybe with A fren only. I cant sing man so ya malu la. But i miss singing jgk. Lame tk karaoke haha. Anybody? heh.

Hmmmm.... No more rdy. Ok bubbye!

2010-02-15T01:26:00.005+08:00

How nice it is to can actually feel and know that someone out there loveeesss u very very very very very very much. I really envy couples out there who really spend time together and can feel the love for each other.

I just feel like ;(((((((((((((((((( now.

2010-02-11T22:12:00.003+08:00

heh. :) ok im back blogging *eyebrows up n down*. Feel like blogging today. Hands itchy donoe y haha. Ok, firstly, AKU NK JADI MAK ANDAM, OK?! ok? :) This week will be the last week of the merchandising work. Yes, i resigned. I actually worked for like almost 2 mths only. Why? The reason is super simple. Cause im nt interested with the work, seriously. For me its better to quit if im nt interested with the work. I can stay on for the sake of the pay but, i'll confirm do the work in a anyhow manner way. Just check, stack and go. Will always wanna go home early. Isnt dat not good? I'll get scolding and complaints. So ya, for the sake of the company *cheeehhh* hahaha, i might just as well quit. Dont wish to give the company a bad name. See, im good. Think of others also. ;) haha. Now, imma take another mak andam course. Way way way cheaper and this time round, its a real mak andam course. And i can straightaway start work with them aft the course. Paywise, even tho its not as good as the merchandising work, but atleast i have the interest and passion and bcos of these 2, im willing to sacrfice. Slowly2 save up. Hmm so ya. heh. Cant wait. :)

Love knw that i have a blog but he doesnt know my link. Will not give him, wanna let him find himself. Senang sia link aku, http://www.e-naz.blogspot.com/ je. Senang gile .... hahaha.

AND! BISUL IS GETTING MORE IRRITATING AND IRRITATING! Kentot pon saket? Tk ke irri? Geraaaaaammmm jee..

And tell me why do i always put love's pic here? Thats easy.... Bcos, I Love Him. :)

2010-01-25T20:49:00.006+08:00

Back. Life n work has been quite hectic for me this past few weeks. The work is nt easy i can say. The walking will make ur leg go mashmellow. haha. And ur transport, imagine u use up $10 per day! But i like this job. The time will fly very3 fast You wont even have time to eat! In fact, u'll need more time to finish your work. You'll want to stay longer at the outlet. hahaha. But nah its ok. I'll rather go home. haha. Its been almost a mth now since i started working. Tomorrow, i can "rase" my own hard earned money. So excited donoe y. Think maybe its because im a spoilt girl last time. So ya its time for me to wake up n earn my own money. heh.

Ok let me share with u a story k. The sweetest thing that has ever happened to me. This is somehow like shown in movies ah. hahaha. Ok. To be exact, last Fri, on 22 January, met love. Went Bencoolen st to eat Nasi Lemak (although he wants to eat burger haha) but i want to eat nasi lemak. He made me angry so he have to give in. VERY GOOD! haha. Ok before we meet, he kept saying about wanting to eat "roti" (bread) tgt with me. So random right? BREAD? haha. I sense smtg fishy la. He showed me the bread. He kept on saying "i want to eat the bread tgt with u. Skali skale sia b mkn roti same2, salah ke?"At first i tot it was the fake bread that can be bought frm the toy bread shop to fool me. But its not. The skin of the bread did came out when i pinched it. So after eating nasi lemak, we sat at one corner n he took out his bread. He even cut the bread into half. He wanted to give me the bread on his left hand but i want the bread on his right side. Atlast i have to take on the left. Turn the bread around an guess what? I saw a plastic sticking out frm the bread. I was like, "ape sia ni plastic dlm roti" I took it out. Theres a ring inside it rupenyeee... haha. Then i was like "ehk ape ni? take back take back." haha. Nk cover malu. Im nt good at expressing and i react quite slow. Thats like seriously the sweetest thing. He also bought me a necklace months back. Show u the pics k. but abit blur.

ok? hehe. ok dats it for now. got to slp. tata! :D

2010-01-10T21:43:00.001+08:00

ok its January 10th now. What should i blog about today? Hmmm.. Dec 29th was me n love's 5th mthsary. Believe it or not, we've been tgt for 5 mths but thats the first time we went out on the date. haha. Ok boring topic.

I've already moved house to Toa Payoh. At first i tot tpy will nt be a gd place and i'll miss yis sooo much. But after a few days, i realised im wrong. I felt happy staying there. But ofcos theres some disadvantages la like im nt used to the place yet, theres nt much provision shop n the provision shop is far away frm my hs. The market is useless! haha. But its near to the town area la. My neighbours frenly. I've gone missing as in not active at fb n msn n nt updating my blog is bcos, i told myself as long as i dont get a full time job i'll not on the comp.

N now ive started working, full time Im fucking happy! Serious. I can help my mom. I dont wish to ask money frm anyone else anymore. I wanna be independent n find my own money so that i can shop n buy what i want. hehe. I really3 want to thank HIM for giving me this opportunity. Im so grateful right now. hehe. :D

Lastly, i donoe why i cant wait for the outing with Fazura, Ayu n Didi. It'll be postpone till Feb but thts ok. Will wait patiently heh. So yeah thats it la for today. Donoe what else to post rdy. See ya! ;)

2009-12-27T00:16:00.006+08:00

See that guy up there? I miss him. I miss love. I miss my cik abg. I miss kempot. I miss kepok, I miss smurf. I miss him! Got the chance to meet up just nw but smtg cropped up last min so didnt get to meet. Will be meeting next tue. How sad. :( But its ok, its our 5, heh. Janji dpt jumpe? Correct? haha. In a low down mood right now. For now,tmr n on mon, just have to keep myself busy. Nvm i gt things to do. Clean up my room, prac more on my split so that itll be more straight. Nk leg lift!!! ISH! haha. And oh ya pack my things. Will be moving house soon. Ok 2nd post of the day. haha. Tc people, have a great weekend! :D

2009-12-26T20:28:00.012+08:00

I MISS VOGUELICIOUS!

Luke Fadhlie Sri izzy <3 And Alyv =)
And the seasons dancers <3

Words alone cant describe the laughter, pain, joy, happiness, madness, the gossips that we had, the waking up as early as 8 for some to get rdy for prac n as late as 12 reached home, the tired pracs, the "again", again n again word when we had our prac. the scoldings n etc that we had during the 1 mth prac tgt. Although we didnt knw each other for the 1st time, we took the effort to get to knw one another better, to have a greater bonding. And as days goes by, the "family" feeling came. Saw the pic of us tgt up there? Thats how happy we are. :) Had great exposure of dance. Saw many crews. All had their diff styles of dancing. It was really an eye opener for me. Now, seasons has ended, we wont stop contacting each other ofcos. Will do meet ups n stuffs. Just a random post bout them today. heh.

And one word for Voguelicious, SUPERB! :D
Up there is Sri Aliff. He is just an awesome human being. Thats all i can say bout him. Look at his face, mcm barbie kn??? Cute kn?? During prac even when he's angry, i just cant stop looking at him cause his face! too barbie! Cute sgt! haha.

Alyv is best! Super funny, but too talkative, cant take it! haha. Met him yest, helped him with some things. Will be meeting them soon at rp again. REMBUCTIONS baby! haha

2009-12-21T22:51:00.006+08:00

Im bored now. Effing bored. For the 1st time i use the word effing. Sounds funny to me tho.haha.
Love is working right now frm morning till 11. Got a new phone to use for the time being. Its a better phone la, nokia but donoe what model. Donoe how to check also haha. But the sad part is theres no memory card. Have to buy it. 1 gb enough le ehk? heh.

Tmr will be meeting love, cant wait! Heh. And oh ya, the chalet. It was a not a really good one but yet not a not good one la. okok la. Played games, eat tgt, bbq and simple2 stuffs la. They didnt organise well plus it rained on the 2nd day. Mostly we just sit in the chalet or just play outside the chalet. The toilet! OMG! Seperated and i didnt shit for 3 days! The toilet is really unbearable. Geli! haha! For me, altho it was not really a nice one but who cares? Cause love's with me for 3 days straight! heh. Pics will uploaded when i get the pics aites. :)

Ok now lets talk bout spammers. After bloghopping for many times. I realised that mostly ard 95% of the spammers is the malays. Seriously. I wonder what are the malays doing. Rarely i can see a chinese spamming ppls blog. I wonder what are the spammers thinking. They spam bcos they dont like the blog owner or what? If they dont like the blog owner or whatsoever right, why do they even look and read their blog in the 1st place?I tot when u hated somebody u wouldnt even wanna care about how or what is he/she doing? Spamming is one thing. By putting their nt real name is another thing. I find this silly haha. They'll put names like "passerby, guest, bla3 n even this -> -.-" HAHAHA! What a name. Spammers spammers... I really donoe what to say anymore about this. I just find it funny. So ya, spammers, tkmo la spam2 blog org k.

Take care people. Peace. Tata :D

2009-12-15T22:04:00.009+08:00

Hey hey hey... Im back...

Todays post might be a super long one ok!

Im back with new blogskin. Thanks to Reena. :D
Dari nk suro Nad buatkn frm months ago end up Reena yg buat. Thanks girl. :D
Its a simple one yet nice. I like the background. The wordings, when i have the time n energy to change, i'll change it aites. Now it looks a lil boring but, who cares? haha!

Its been more thn a week since i last updated my blog. Speaking bout blog, boyfie say he finds people who owns a blog mcm kental. haha! But as a owner of a blog, of cos i fought back ah. I say blog is where some ppl use it to express their feelings, thoughts n stories. And to those who dont dare to speak out their probs (like me sometimes), blog is their friend. And guess what, I WON! haha. He agreed to me but still say some only la yg kental haha. Boyfie boyfie ...

Lets talk about work today. Im still jobless now. Seriously during my sec sch time i used to think that sec sch n o lvls are nt really impt as the job that i wanna work ( mak andam) in future doesnt really need sci, maths, poa n stuffs. Simple said, education. But it does somehow proved me wrg. And now i took the wrg step which is to take private diploma at cosmoprof. I should have taken courses which is much3 more cheaper at the bridal shop itself. But i didnt know so ya, cant be helped anymore with it. Besides wanting to be a mak andam, my dream job is to be a receptionist or maybe a CSO. I scored 33 points n just pass for my eng n mly only during my o which totally suck! With 33 points, u say can i be a receptionist? Jadi cleaner sudah! hahaha!

I cant get into poly. To young readers who r reading my blog, maybe, please ya study hard k? Dont play2. Education IS VERY IMPT OK?! Continue, i can get into ite but nitec. Slim chances of gg higher nitec. But due to the strong bad influence which ite is known for, ive decided nt to go ite n take the private dip instead. But that was totally a wrg choice to made. SERIOUS. OK, FOR THOSE WHO WANTS TO BE A MAK ANDAM, I SAID MALAY MAK ANDAM, BETTER DONT TAKE COSMOPROF AITES cause ur cert cant brg u far. Seriously, no joking. I've asked most mly bridal shops and they said in order to work for em, u'll have to take their course first. Money again? Hearing all that made my heart down down down down down down...

See? thats y taking dip at cosmo is smtg nt good for ppl like me. Me n some of my mly classmates regretted. Not just bcos of the cert. Money wise also. Imagine we spent over 4k but the quality of the make up sucks! Plus the cert .. oh gosh! Now i wanna try my luck at MAC. Wanna work there n save up a few thousands n retake the course at the most goodest *is there any such word as goodest?*haha mly bridal shop n from there, insyaallah i can become one! heh :D

See how long is my post today? hahaha! I was bored to death just now seriously. Sat at home doing notg good! but i did some researched on bridal boutiques ehk.. heh. Played comp from 2 plus till now! And plus watching tv. How i wish i am a mak andam now. :'( And ya, hey hey, from fri till sun i'll be going for chalet!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!! So happy, cant wait! heh! 19 years of living in this world, this is my bloody first time, IM SERIOUS!, my first time tonning at chalet 3 days straight w/o any of my fam members! HAHA! :DDDDDDDD Hopefully the chalet will turn out to be a fun n memorable one.

Ok i'll stop here for today. Will be back again aites. Do tag at my tb aites ppl. Take care! :D

2009-12-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

Its 6 dec today. So, what does that mean?
1st- Dance with Voguelicious n the rest has ended :(
2nd- 4th bro's wedding.

Lets start with my bro's wedding first. First n foremost, blog is where i can mostly express my feelings sometimes as i dont really dare to talk to ppl bout how i feel.
Bro's wedding was rather a sad one for me. First, n the most impt, my mum didnt attend for his wedding solemnisation n sanding. I didnt went for his nikah which is on the sat as i had show on that day. Thought of gg but i have to report at 12 so cant make it. I CRIED OK?! But i went on sun. And the fucking thing is, on sun, my bros wedding was held at my father's side so that explains y my mum didint turn up. We(me n my bros plus their partners) was pissed with satu-satu nye fucking face. Everyone was showing faces to us as some did not turn up for the nikah. I knw im at fault but what can me n the rest do??? And as for the sanding, we did nt ask u to make it big. We suggested to make just a simple one which is to do some prayers at hm. But u guys insisted on doing it. So, our fault? U guys did nt plan everytg properly, no dishwasher no everything n u expect us to help u? NO! haha! More actually but nah wont wanna elaborate more. But overall im happy that i met up with num 4 just nw. Swear to god that he looked great, stunning! mcm prince. heh. Cabot home early at 5 just nw. Just walked off w/o informing anybody. Cant take it anymore. Felt uneasy at my fathers side.

Next, dance. Show ended yest. Show was awesome! Bitching was fun! And got fucked was fun too! hahaha! (not literally gt fuck k?) Pics uploaded at fb. Yest was sad for all of us. Thats the end. No more RP, no more waking up early. no more "stupid or what??? no more"u guys ah...haiyooo!!!" no more"walk somemore! no more 7-11, no more breaks, no more bitch, no more black box, no more. Thats it! Imagine a b-boy cried yest as we r seperating. Im touched ok. Feel like crying but i tahan. Dowanna make everyone else more sad. Took many2 pics with the voguelicious and especially SRI! :D The off we go frm RP. Ate mac n bf came after a short while. Had to leave with him but the rest still continue. I miss them. The love is very strong even tho we just knw for a mth. The fun, crazyness, laughters that we had. Everything's sweet. Sweet memories to keep in mind n heart forever. BUT! The frenship will nt stop ehk...... Will still/must/have/ to meet up. Picnic is a must.
OMG! i am freaking missing them right now. Sri meow2 faizah ella farhan nadt nini pearl khai alfie alyv ingeli fadhil fadhlie luke izzy and many more la! <3 many3!

2009-12-05T01:14:00.000+08:00

I ♥ VOGUELICIOUS!

2009-11-20T16:52:00.003+08:00

Facebook pic uploader's back. I've uploaded many pics at fb. Check it out yo!
N my msn is also back! Its been days or maybe weeks that ive been using ebuddy.
Bosan sungguh nk mampos. haha.

Today, not going for prac as i've to prepare for my portfolio tmr.
Praying hard for tmr. Hopefully everyhing goes well.
So yeah, short post for today.
See ya! :)

2009-11-20T01:39:00.020+08:00

Terperanjat huh? hahahah! Tis was done on one of my make up classes. Done my classmates.
So how is it? Nice? hahahah!

Ok was waiting for the bloody fb to finish uploading the pics.

Taking years mann! Donoe whats wrg with fb nowadays. Took years to upload just 1! pic. tsk!

Ok while waiting i feel like blogging n so here i am.

Gonna blog about life these past few weeks. Its been a hectic one seriously.

Dance its like everday. Long hours. But i did enjoyed myself.

Met n make new frens with new bunch of ppl. Never had these kind of frens b4 haha

Seriously new envi. The melatahs, noise, the sungguh tk-tau-malu n diff kinds of ppl. hahaha.

But they r fun, i liiikeee.... haha :D

Never in my life dance while walking. Tried and its super fun! The whole grp went town last sat to promote this event. And we did received good responses okay. Atleast after looking at us dance and heard the details bout the event, they bought the tix straightaway. Now the tix are selling fast! great huh? Tk sia2 joget tgh2 town haha. We'll be doing it again this weekend i guess n if its not being cancelled ah. After dancing like mad ppl at town, went to eat. Many stuffs, censored and uncensored topics are being shared. Was shocked to hear some of the stories. After that headed hm. Had prac again the day after n atfer n after n after..... Fun. :D

Okay partly bcos of this dance, im broke fucking broke right now! hahaha. My fares, its so hard to cope with the fares. Thought of working but cant due to the commitment that ive promised. 5th dec onwards will be working part time for short while so that atleast ill have some money to spend. Food, has not been eating properly. I miss eating rice with dishes. haha.

Love? Gosh! We're still together. Its just that theres some prob here n there as usual. My brain?!?!!? I hate my brain so much mannn!! My brain is like taking over my whole body now! Hate it so freaking much! Need help on this seriously!

Portfolio? Sat? Lagi OMG! Havent prepare anything! Didnt prac for quite some time. Am sooooooooooooo scared right now. Seriously. Oh gosh! Lost for words right now.

Its been quite some time since i last updated my boring blog. And see how long this post is! hahaha! Pic time aites now beybeh!

N psst! Fyi, fb still cant upload pics even after been waiting for like 30 mins? Aiyooooooooo.........

2009-11-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

Today, which is 3-11-2009, MY DREAM CAME TRUE!
Im like so fucking happy excited and tired but the tiredness is so worth it.
Seriously my dream came true! haha!
ok shall update again some other day.
Tc ppl. ;)

2009-10-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

Ok, what should i blog about today? Hmmmm ....
Ok lets do a kental plus kepok post today k.
Wanna start off with my daily life.
Sudah terang boring.
Mon n wed = school.
Some of the weekdays n sats had dance prac.
Meet love whenever he's free.
Even if its half n hour also.
Ok done. thats it! haha.
And oh ya, Kak aishah gave us a challenge which is to choreo dance steps for 1 min n teach her.
We accepted it ofcos. Will do our very best! heh :)

Ok see my life is very so the boring kn.
Thought of finding a job. More to admin but i just dont have the experience and qualifications.
But ICA needs ppl. wanna give it a try.
Mak andam? Not too sure bout it.
Still thinking for now.
Thought of finding a full time work like i sad, admin. Then mak andam, freelance.
How bout that? Do give me comments on this ppl.
Im not too sure about this. I know i'll just have to follow my heart but i need ppl's opinion too.
Not wrg to ask opinions right?
So yeah comment on this ppl! thanks! :)

2009-10-15T17:42:00.004+08:00

Just had a chat with Ayu and everytg's settled.
Misunderstanding is really not good.
Many can be offended even if we're nt refering to them.
But blog is where we express our feelings right?
Aiyoyo thambi tanghechi ama apa everbody la! hahah!
But janji everytys fine da ok.
Thanks for approaching aites ayu. :)
We share the same thinking where if we're nt happy with each other, y nt meetup or call or msg? rather thn exchanging posts on each others blog. Thats immatured. Thats right baby. Im nt that type either. Anyway thanks alot once again.

Ok, now seriously im craving for these 2, LASAGNA n NASI LEMAK at bencoolen st.
you guys should try the nasi lemak if u havent. I can guarantee u its nice. :)
Airliuh asek meleleh babe dlm mulot hahah. If love never brought me to the bencoolen st for nasi lemak the other day i dont think i'll like the nasi lemak this much! AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im suffering! I think i'll go to pizza hut later at CP with my bro and tmr, .... shall see how k haha.

Hmmm .... Now? Nothing to blog about. Boring. ok bye.

2009-10-13T01:25:00.019+08:00

Hey im back!

Performance was awesome!

The clothes, the hair, the accessories, the makeups, food, evrything.
The best i ever had i guess.

Although theres some "smelly-mouthed" ppl, everything went well.

And u guys also screwed up ok! hahahah!

Nevertheless, FUN FUN FUN!!

Let the pics do the talking.

Update a few only k. heh.

The whole lot of dem. :)

And ya, psst psst! I heard that theres sume buggers who have been viewing my blog and made assumptions bout me. I dont like that k. Dont wish to say names. I might be wrg. Im just saying, if ur nt happy with me, gladly come forward can meet me up or if ur shy u can either call or the least msg me say whatever that ur nt happy with me k. Please dont play this hide n seek game. Im the type of person that, if its my fault i will say sorry to u. BUT! if ur in the wrg, don blame me for being rude k. Thanks. :)

2009-10-02T20:18:00.004+08:00

Deleted my old2 posts. When i read back my posts, sumpah cm minah. hahaha. So yeah, need to delete! hahah! Wanna start fresh and new. No more minah2 toking anymore. =)

Yest, bdae saye! hehe. Thanks for the SMSes and the wishes aites ppl. And to Iffa, Tiger, Hana and Man, thanks for the fucking suprise! hahah. Love u guys alot!
And love, i knw u'll nt read this cause u donoe my link, but just wanna say thanks for taking a half day off and even tho this was my 1st time celebrating my bdae with you was quite a... hmmm its okla! janji jmp! haha and even though ur tired, i can sense that ok! tanks for the gift and ur time k? Hearts u many2 beybeh! hehehe.

Cheh da mcm nk bagi speech menang award pulak ehk. hahaha.
ape motive aku nye blog nari?
mampos!
i cant remember things well mann. i dont even remember my own schedule.
haiya... seram saye.. haha
k bye!

2009-09-30T00:06:00.006+08:00

This is Zura love. We went for a lunch date last mon. Blanje mkn pizza hut beb. hehehe. Its been months or a year since i last saw her i think. The date was awesome! I had fun laughing my ass off. Actually for the past few months, she promised to treat us but had to postpone it many times due to our busy schedules. Smpi la last mon baru dpt jumpe ....... Theres 2 choices actually, either pizza hut or swensen but as we headed the town and cant find the swensen so pizza hut la. Sat down, ordered and gossiped. hahahaha sial. We ate quite alot. Zura actually finishes her food mann! Good job girl. Biar mkn lebih siket. Kudut nah tu haha. Me, bolognese and zura, lasagne. 1 story to share. When she was keeping her money in her wallet, she say " aku ade smtg nk blg kau " I thought nk kasi duet raye or what ah hahaha. But this is even funnier. Her ********* !!!!!! hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahaha!! Cant share cos she will shyshy. hahahaha. I seriously laugh out loud. This is then the real LOL hahahahahahahah! siak ah kau zura. U really made me laugh man hahaha. Took some pics and went far east jln2. And DIDI, we gossiped bout u! Zura, tkmo blg. Shhh .. hahaha. I bought 1 top. Now then u know how fussy i am ah haha. Went off at 6 cos i gt lesson. She went tamp to meet her fren. So had to say byebye. Saddd ... But nvm.. Can meet up again right? This time round is my treat aites? Next year maybe? hahahah When i start work already la. kk? We shall meet again GUNDU. :) Now, pic time...

See told u she finish her food haha

Is this too much for 2 ppl's stomach? haha But alhamdulillah duet die tk wasted cume half of the 1/4 pizza je tk mkn. hehe

Girls loveeeesss to take pics in the toilet haha

2009-09-24T18:40:00.007+08:00

HAPPY HARI RAYE PPL !!!

hehe slmt hari raye maaf zahir batin nye.
Lets start kepok blogging again haha.
1st day raye was not so good.
Somthing bad, i really mean bad, real bad happened on pagi raye, real pagi at 5 plus.
Everyone wasnt able to slp peacefully. Sume pegi uma nenek sumpah dgn mate ngantok! haha!
So, went nenek hs as usual den mlm went 4th bro's hs.
Then da. No more! Tired! Sleepy.
First day collection was awesome.
$10 haha excluded from parents n bros la.
$10 ok la lps duet ezlink haha.
2nd day, accompanied kak lin to her family's side.
Went frm tamp to jurong. Naik mrt sumpah lengit! hahaha!
At night pon ade problem lagi. Problematic nah ni family. Benci! hahahaha!
2nd day 's collection = $5. haha. ok la ..
3rd day onwards no jln2 anymore.
My family doesnt really like to go jln2.
Actually what we planned is to just go neneks hs on the 1st day den go hm.
But what to do... heh.

This cousin of mine accompanied me to town to buy my seliper the day b4 yest. Thanks firli! :) I still remembered we gt lost at town the other day. hahaha.
We took 45 MINS from far east to heeren.
We laughed our ass off.
He said " Ni kalau msk amazing sumpah kala siol. " hahaahahahah!
We even thought of asking the angmohs wheres the heeren
haha
but ofcos we didnt la buat malu je nk tanye.
We find ourselves. Many times, we have to turn back.
Stupid singaporeans. haha
Yest went back town again but this time alone. I gt lost again as usual. I always have probs going out from the mrt to where i wanna go. Sumpah paiseh hahaha.

Yest, class resumed.
Sumpah binget ngn tu step speaking AUNTY!
My lovely hair went hard and stiff bcos of her!.
Anyhow do my hair only. Fuck!
Then met love, again, amk.
Den off to yis dam.
den headed home.
k da! hahaha
bye poks!

2009-09-19T16:27:00.004+08:00

Havent edit the blogskin ..............
Sedihnye ........

Hmm k nvm.
Today can let me be a lil jiwang2 can? hehe.
Donoe why im feeling this way right now after looking at love's fb. Jealous agaknye haha. But thats normal right for us to be jealous. I knew i wont feel jealous easily now but tah ehk, ale2 ah geng. hahah. Wanna letout my feelings here, as usual ah cos i wont dare to talk bout this to anyone else. Its shy actually. hehe. My classmates keep tellling me not to believe guys as guys are untrustable but to think back again, not all guys are the same right? Hmmm.. tah ehk.
Im not sure whether love is the trustworthy type or nt. kalau tanye, of course he'll say yes la. But, tah la! Im confused right now! hahahahahahahahaha! He gt many3 gfs, cousins pn rmi yg girl. Pat fb donoe which is which. Guys can be very clever when it comes to this. We'll nvr know whats in their mind. Nk tanye pon mcm interfering his life gtu. Kalau tk tanye, geram2 sendiri mcm skrg ni! But he always say "its nt wrong to ask la." So im in the confuscion mode now haha. Wish he could read this blog of mine jadi die tau. hmmmm...
Is there smtg wrg with me or him ehk? Im not sure.
I really3 wish, kau dpt bace ah blog aku ni!
Jadi kau tau ah ape aku rase! hahahhahahahah!

Rindu nah la joget! k ni random.
But seriously, i miss dancing.
Cant wait for 22nd sept.
Bye!

2009-09-12T01:41:00.001+08:00

I WANNA HAVE A NEW BLOGSKIN !!!

FULLY FURNISHED K?

=)

2009-09-08T19:53:00.007+08:00

Yest was the "oh-so-jambu" day for me. Feeling2 jambu sendiri aku smlm. heh

Make up does makes wonders, for sure.

Yest, mon, as usual i had class. and the make up done was fabulous! But a lil exaggerating la cause yest was the night's bridal make up so tebal siket but seriously thumbs up! heh!

Everything went smoothly yest but only for 1 thing that didnt went right. -> My cam fone.

Quality sumpah sucks. Biase ah china fone so too bad la.

Did captured some pics but tk nmpk sgt the make up.

But the eye, FUHH! hahaha!

Im getting more confident here to be a mak andam.

I'll not let the $3600 gone wasted just like that.

I'll work hard!

I've planned what i wanna do next yr and in future.

Hopefully everything went smoothly in future k.
Please allow me to do the things i want in future k Tuhan? hehe =)

ok im getting excited here! hahahaha

ok now see the pics k. kk? Hee =D

2009-09-03T00:30:00.003+08:00

ok its been a long time tk update blog.
no idea or topics nk update pon ah. heh.
this few days, i've been either to the hosp to visit my atok or amk, lepak2 or skola.
dah tu je.

and oh ya. last week, 3 days straight to the geylang. haha
thurs went with my mom jln2.
fri = fri night laughs with frens. hahaha
ans sat, bought baju raye. will be wearing dark green this yr.
donoe why i chose that colour but nvm la add another mly traditional baju in my wardrobe je la. hahahaha.

now, pat skola kite da blaja full day bridal makeup.
hmm k da.
tu je nk update.
kental kn?
mampos.
hahahaha.
bye la!

2009-08-25T22:37:00.005+08:00

Is bulan puase the full of test month? So, that means all sorts of tests will be given by Him to us, human beings during this month? But why must it be so harsh?

- 1st, anak2. 6 childrens, 6 diff kinds of perangai, including me i guess she'll have to endure.

- 2nd, the lovely hs that we have been staying for more thn a decade. Now, we'll have to let go.

- 3rd, my bro and the stupid cop! I'll fuck his backside with a carrot if i were to see him outside.

- 4th, the majlis for my bro's wedding is cancelled. So no more under the block, no more karaoke-ing and bla3. But the wedding is still on. A simple one.

- 5th, my lovely old atok was admitted to hosp. Stroke.

- 6th, family member passed away and another, prison.

This happened one after another. Non-stop hits. Dont wish to exaggerate more on the points up there. Just thought of letting out my feelings here. Im sure if He has more coming up for us or maybe a lil bit more, just a lil bit more, my mum will surely be down down down down down down down down down down down down down. Now, she's facing all this probs bravely. She can still smile or shall i say put on a smile so not to let us worry. In future? Hmmmm ...

But to think on the positive side, im sure theres many worst cases thn us outside there. For eg, in India, they dont even have a proper hs to stay or good doctors.

I really hope all this can end asap and be normal together again.

2009-08-18T00:31:00.006+08:00

Hey im back to update again.
Yest which actually just passed for just 31 mins was my 2nd day of class.
Todays was the 1st hands on session.
I forgt to brg money for the things that i've ordered but that doesnt mean i cant do anything.
I did smtg k, everyone in the class did.
For the first time i actually learned how to put on the "concealer and foundation" the right way.
Sumpah tgn lengoh. hahah

No wonder mak andams took hours to get the bride rdy.
In class we dont really use real concealer and foundation.
If u guys want to know more, go take the course k. haha

And to the passerby, kite tau awak mly. i was just joking je la pat shoutbox tu hehe.
I took bridal nye course and it cost $2800 and u have to set aside another $300 or $400.
So total ard $3200 ah. =)
Lain nye course pn ade. Awak go check it out k. =)

Today, triple happiness for me.
This is the second one.
After a super duper long long long long long time, at last, all my bros were at hm tadi.
eating together at a table with their own wife/gf.
Was so happy when i reached hm just nw to see all my family members under the same roof, together.
How i wish this can happen everyday but piker2 balik tknk ah, rumah tonggang terbalik dibuatnye. hahaha.
But nevertheless, im happy just nw. :)

Now, the third one.
I can use the comp again !!!
Woooohhooooo!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha .
If today we were to meet then today will be one of the best days for me. But its ok. :)

Tc kepoks!

2009-08-14T17:39:00.002+08:00

Ok skrg lagi sedih saye.
COMP TKLE ON !!!!!
mcm seasidebtl.
nk reboot but cant find the cd.
adduuuiii..
ni pon loan laptop org jap.
Haiz sedih2....

Hey, now kakak da start blaja beb.
Went for the 1st class last wed.
Quite boring but yet interesting.
Boring psl sume aunty2 makcik2 ! Mangkok je! haha.
But its ok.
Best psl i'll get to learn more about the topic plus some hands on session.hehe.
In future, i'll make u girls the prettiest girl in the world!
=D

Thats it for now.
Tc kepoks!
And Tipatnam (i totally forgot ur name, i swear!) haha mcm mana kamu bole dpt tau link saya ya? Heran pulak saya.
U tc aites.
Toodlesss ... !!! *winks*